Five down

ONLY ONE LEFT!!!

FEC felt like an old friend after the nasty yew poison. It's perversely reassuring to see that pink wee once again (FEC contains three chemo drugs. One of them, epirubicin, is as its name suggests bright red and dyes urine the same colour).

Someone said to me the other day:  "You're being very brave. If I was you I'd be absolutely terrified." to which I replied: "You underestimate yourself, if it was you, you'd be brave too!"

Each time I go to chemo clinic or anywhere else connected with cancer I come across people braver than me, dealing with worse prognoses, repeat diagnoses or more ghastly treatment regimes; coping with courage and good humour.

The truth is, it's impossible to remain 'absolutely terrified' for six months solid. There have been moments of  fear, panic and helplessness, and plenty of tears, but there's also been a lot of laughter and times of tracendental wonder when I remember how FEC-ing great it is to be alive!